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Monday, January 11, 2010

I cannot believe the last time I posted was the 19th of December! That is just crazy stuff!

The Christmas break is always a very busy time for me. It's like I blink and it's all done and dusted. I can't believe we are nearly half way through January already!!!!!

So much has happened, so this entry might require a cuppa!

Things have been going okay with the band. My weight has crept back up to 92kg and seems to be stuck there. The funny thing is that people are commenting that I have lost more weight, but alas NO! I'm trying to think back to what I was eating and drinking to get down to 87kg. It's times like this I wish I was motivated to keep an accurate food diary.

On the exercise front things are progressing nicely. My couch to 5k running program is coming along great. I did this program years ago and I'm amazed at how losing weight has made a huge change to what speed I can run at. When I first did it my walking speed was at 5.7km/hr and my running speed a mere 7.7km/hr. This time has found me easily walking at 6.3km and running at 9km. Considering I first did this 6 years ago, I think that is pretty good going! I am motivated to finish it fully this time.

Here is a journal entry from my blog last year....

January 01, 2009

This year is going to be MY YEAR!


So last night I rang in the new year with 2 bottles of Moet (my head is paying for it today) and today I jump on the wagon. No alcohol!!! I have been a 3+ glass of wine per day drinker for many years, but there is not way I am going in to have surgery knowing that I haven't given it my best! My poor liver won't know what's going on!

I so cannot wait to have this surgery done. I feel like my life is on hold!!!

So 2009 is my year. A year where I am going to be selfish with my time so that I can exercise. A year when I am going to run/walk a half marathon. A year when I am going to get my weight under control!

My first day of 2009 has me overweight and hung over. The first day of 2010 is going to be completely different. Just you wait and see!

Sadly, I wasn't selfish with my time last year and therefore didn't manage the half marathon. I still struggle with putting everyone else's needs in front of my own. I have made myself this promise again, however this time I have gone through my diary and cleary marked exercise sessions and my working times. Since starting the job I am currenlty in my time has not been my own. I feel like I have no life and my whole existance revolves around work and home. It's time to bring this back into balance!

On a positive note, my first day of 2010 WAS completely different to 2009. I still indulged in some good champers, but I stopped early as I didn't want to begin this New Year hung over. I woke up early and felt fresh and new! I am still classed as "overweight", however last New Year I was wearing jeans that had a 40 inch waistband (size 22), this year I was wearing a size 33 inch waistband (size 16).

A couple of days into the New Year I was beginning to feel depressed. At 92kg there is now way I am going to reach my goal of 84kg before I go back and see my Dr. The last session I had with my dietitian was my compulsory ones after surgery. I gave her office a call and made an appointment for the 6th of January. It was great to chat to her and get some great tips. I felt renewed again. I also made another appointment with her when I go and see my Dr in February. My new goal is 88kg. With the gym and eating right I know that I will give it my best shot! It's funny but I always saw the dietitian as a waste of money with the band. I now understand that it is really important. She has ordered blood tests to check my vitamin/nutrient levels in my body and see what I need in order to be healthy. It's good to have that feeling of somebody being in your corner!

It's so easy to focus on how far you have to go, or how you haven't been the perfect bander, HOWEVER, I think it's also important to look at what you have achieved!

I think back to this time last year.....

I can remember scoffing down Red Rooster chips one day in the car and realising that my cheeks were so fat I could actually see them. On a positive note - my addiction to hot chips has now gone. I just cannot eat them with the band. The best part is that I don't even miss them!

I can remember this time last year and how depressed I was that my size 40 inch jeans were getting too tight. What was the next step here for me? I was already wearing mens jeans as I couldn't fit into ladies ones. What was next? The BIG AND TALL shops????

This time last year I was an empty shell. I had nothing left in me. I felt defeated.

I still have my days where I feel like this, but thankfully they are few and far between!