Coming out of the closet.

Friday, July 22, 2011

One of my biggest fears of somebody in my small town finding my blog is people knowing that I've had this band done. We put enough pressure on ourselves to lose weight (even with the band) without having to worry about what other people are thinking. I'm at a point in my life where if people do know I've had it done, so what!

I found the lapbanding blog community a real help when I first had the band fitted and managed to lose weight. We all band together (sorry I couldn't help myself!) and I found the support of other bandits a huge motivation to keep me on track and working towards my goals.

So since I'm outing myself, I've decided on a new blog....

Come over and visit me at


Sunday, April 10, 2011

We have restriction. I went and had a fill on Friday. Had my first 'stuck' today. I finally feel back in control! No more snacking between meals and I'm actually leaving stuff on the plate. Ok, I would have eaten all my cous cous salad and chicken sausage, but if I'd eaten another fork full I would have been PB'n. So now the rules of this fantastic little band need to be applied. If they are not... then I will pay. My little band baby is already 3 months old. He is just such a joy and I am ready to be pregnant with number two! People look at me like I'm crazy. He is a reflux baby, so it has been testing at times, but even in our darkest hours if somebody offered me a pill to be pregnant instantly.... I would have taken it without a second thought. Now as much as I want to be pregnant again, I need to be responsible. My weight has crept back up to 96-97kg. This is due to not only poor eating habits with no restriction but also due to the fact that I am now a stay-at-home Mum. I have gone from being on my feet for 10 hours a day to sitting on the couch feeding a beautiful baby. I am determined to get down to 85kg before we start trying again. I ventured out for a walk with the pram last week. It was a bit of a disaster as the UV mesh I have over the pram doesn't block out the sunlight. Once I turned the corner at the end of our street my poor little man had the sun in his eyes and started crying. I placed a muslin cloth over the mesh and he went off his head. I am going to head out again tomorrow with just the cloth pegged to the pram. I loved being out of the house pounding the pavement. I am looking forward to making it a daily event! So finally after 3 fills I am nearly back to where I was before I was pregnant. I have 3ml in my 4ml band. BRING ON WEIGHT LOSS!!!!

A new start - take two......

Tuesday, March 1, 2011

I swear to God I still have baby brain! I was up bright and early for my Dr's appointment. Doing my best to get ready before bubs work up. After a restless night he was not happy to be worken up. I had his bottle ready as our appointment was right when his feed time was due. We got to the Dr's on time with me ready to feed him only to be told that my appointment was tomorrow morning. When I came home and checked my diary - she was right. AAARRGGGHHH!!!! I had to feed bubs out in the car. Oh how my life has changed!

Thank goodness they have managed to get me in on Friday afternoon - so all will not be lost.

I was doing really well after the baby was born and was back down to my pre-pregnancy weight two weeks after his birth. Sadly in the past month I have been eating like a champion and my weight at the moment is around 96 kilos. The extra large bowls of ice-cream (with ice magic), chocolate and chips have not been doing me any favours. Oh, and don't forget the donut holes that I have been eating in the early hours of the morning when I am up for a night feed!

Time to get back on this weight loss wagon. The great thing with my fill Dr is that he doesn't mind giving larger fills. I am hoping to get 1-2ml in tomorrow. My sweet spot before getting pregnant was around 3.4ml. It will be interesting to see if that stays the same.

It feels like I am being banded for the first time all over again. I am reading up on the rules again as it feels like forever since I've had to worry about this sort of stuff. I have the last of my beloved soft drink in the fridge (that is probably going to be the hardest adjustment again) to finish off tonight. Then it's back to water, water, water.

I went and picked up a bug mesh cover for the pram so bubs and I can start to venture out for a walk in the morning when it's cool. Walking and some light exercises will do me to begin with.

I hope to be pregnant again by the end of the year and this time I really want to get to my goal before I fall. Even though I did well with my weight gain during this pregnancy it doesn't mean the next one will be as kind. I have set myself a goal of 80 kilos. Anything under that will be a bonus.

Somebody is stirring for a feed. I will be back tomorrow with my official weigh in. Here's hoping he can find my port easily!

A new beginning.....

So who would have thought that my last post on the 11th would see me going into labour just over a week later on the 18th!!!

Bubs just couldn't wait any longer to come into this world. He was born healthy and just adorable. Mum had a bit of a rough time, but it was all worth it!!!!!!

So tomorrow marks 6 weeks since I gave birth. It has gone so quickly and I am loving every minute of being a Mum! It is still surreal. He is just amazing. I cannot believe how blessed I am to have this little bundle. I have so much to thank this lapband for!

So 6 weeks after giving birth I am ready for this weight loss journey. This time to goal.

8.45am tomorrow I will have some fill put back in. This is going to be like starting from scratch again.

On the way to 38 weeks....

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

Well this Sunday will mark 38 weeks. Only a couple more until I meet my little bundle!

I have been getting braxton hicks the past couple of days so am wondering if I will make it to the 40 week mark. Probably the fact that I am still working part-time doesn't help. I just feel so useless at home not working. I know this will change once the baby comes along, but I have never not worked in my life!!! I will definatly finish up tomorrow and that is it! No more bookings!

At my last appointment my weight had jumped up 4kg. So now a total of 10kg for the pregnancy. My pre-stretched stomach now has some newbie stretch marks on it! I have been into the bio-oil through the whole pregnancy, but I don't think it has really made a difference.

So the end of this journey is near and then onto my new life as a fit and healthy Mum!

Stay tuned.....

Approaching 32 weeks....

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

Well I can't believe I am totally on the downhill stretch now! My weight gain has been very steady. I'm still at a total of 6kg for the pregnancy. I will be so over the moon if I can manage to keep it at around 10kg.

The funniest thing that has happened over the past week or so is that I feel like I have fill in my band again. The baby is obviously pushing on my stomach. I am back to smaller portions otherwise I get terrible heartburn. It feels strange to have restrictions on the amount I can eat again. I have been careful as I don't want a slippage at this late stage.

On the band front I have decided to have a barium swallow after bubs is born to make sure everything is all okay before I have my first fill. I'm hoping my Dr will be okay with this, even though I haven't had any issues. I'd just like to be sure that all is fine before I start this weight loss journey again.

I have had huge changes in my work life. I have decided to close my small business and do some work from home. This will be a huge change to our lifestyle, but one that will be well worth it. I am looking forward to becoming a Mum and spending some time on health and fitness. I really want to get stuck in and get to goal.

I'll try and get a good pic of my bump.

30 weeks.

Saturday, November 20, 2010

So today marks 30 weeks into this pregnancy. So far I have gained around 6kg. I'm pretty happy with that considering I have not had any fill in my band for the whole pregnancy. That being said I am already starting to think about getting back on this weight loss wagon!

I have loved every minute of being pregnant and am so thankful to the band for getting me there. We were told it wouldn't happen naturally with PCOS, but I guess we proved them wrong. I have another dear friend who also has had fertility issues. She had lapband surgery done just over 12 months ago, lost 30 kilos and is now up the duff! I am so happy for her.

Well I just thought I would drop in and let anyone out there know that I'm alive! I'll be back in weight loss mode again next year.